Loving the Moments

Discontentment creeps in like a thief in the night who seeks to rob you of your joy and feelings of fulfillment and stealthily replaces them with a black hole of jealousy and restlessness.

I love Minnesota and now see it as home, but this doesn't mean that I live everyday being 100% hands down content in the season I am in.

 

I love the season I'm in,

but give me a break I'm human!

I compare, I covet, I dwell on the future a little too much and forget to keep my focus on God - easily becoming blinded to the beauty and grace given by God in every intimate moment of my day.

You feeling me!?! Or am I the only one in this world who gets so farsighted that I'm all alone in the black hole of jealousy and discontentment???

Yes I deeply desire to moved to Marseille, France,

one day get married to a man who is passionately in love with me,

eventually have TONS of babies,

BUT I recently found myself being so discontent being single and mobilizing at Bethany College of Missions.

 

I was close-lined with the sobering reality that life was raging by and I have been missing so many opportunities to make the most of my time serving in Minnesota. While sharing a hallway with 15 awesome women of God, being single and totally available for God to use me in extremely practical ways, my eyes have been fixed on what I don't have and dreaming of a bigger and brighter future.

Talk about a waste of precious moments...

Life isn't just a sum total of so many years,

but a compilation of tiny split second moments of

laughter, tears, awkwardness, passion, drama, romance, family, joy, anguish, forgetfulness, faithfulness, humility, confrontation,  growth, correction, and so much more.

People say its not the destination, but the journey. FALSE! 

 

As Christians, it is totally about the destination which becomes the beginning of eternity. I do understand the phrase though - yes, life is a vapor, grass to be burned, a blink of an eye, but still an important season to be embraced whole heartedly.

So what am I learning?

 

Embrace life and begin loving the moments.